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Playing Hide-and-Seek with Motivation

Anyone who knows me knows how it’s hard for me stay motivated in any area of my life.  I have some theories as to why I can be so unmotivated sometimes, but in the end, all the theories are simply thought-out excuses.


I really don’t know why I’m so lazy.  I just know that I am lazy, and right now, that’s all I think I need to know.  Well, that and how to stop being so lazy.

These last few weeks I’ve switched gears in how I lose weight.  Looking back, the only time I ever lost weight (around 70 pounds so far) was when Ben was helping me.  I apparently can’t really do it on my own.  I need that outside motivation to help me because while I do want to be healthy and lose weight, I just can’t seem to do it on my own just yet.

I’ve lost weight this week, which is so exciting, and it’s because he is helping me.  He set up a plan for me — what to eat, when to eat, how to exercise, etc — and it’s working!  And the only time it doesn’t work is when I get in the way.

So far, he has exercised with me, which is really helpful because he keeps me going and tells me when I’m doing good and when I need to push harder.

Today I was on my own.  And I sucked.  I did considerably worse, and I could not figure out how to motivate myself to go harder.  This is a problem.  I absolutely have to figure out how to motivate myself.  For the time being, I’m going to have to rely on his motivation to keep me going, but I’m just hoping that I can figure it out soon.

I’m so thankful that he’s helping me and that he cares.  We all need people like that in our lives, don’t we?  Someone who is there to help you out when you just can’t seem to do it yourself.  Someone who believes in you and works through things with you.  Someone who supports but isn’t afraid to call you out on your faults and offer ways to improve.  I’m grateful.

One way or another, I’m going to find motivation from within.  It’s hiding somewhere.  Ready or not, here I come.Image


Never give up… ever…


My weight loss is being stubborn right now.  I’ve eaten healthy this week and exercised every day, and I feel like I look fatter than I did the week before.  I hate when that happens.  I’m probably just bloated, but it still sucks to work so hard and look worse than you did when you weren’t working hard.  But I have to keep going.  I can’t use this as an excuse to give up!

I don’t know if it’s physical or mental/emotional for me, but it’s something! 

Have you ever thought you looked worse when you are trying to lose weight than when you aren’t? 

But no matter what, I’m not giving up.  Even if I don’t look better, I know that I’m feeling better and on my way to being even healthier… so it’s worth it!

Excuses, excuses…

When it comes to finding excuses to NOT workout, I’m pretty sure no one is better than me!

Oh, it’s snowing?  Probably shouldn’t drive in case it’s icy.

What?  I have to work late?  I’ll be too tired to workout when I get home.

Crap, I just started.  Guess I have to take the week off.

I ate a cupcake?  Exercising is just a waste at this point.

Excuses, excuses, excuses.

These excuses don’t even make sense, because won’t exercising at least help negate the calories from the cupcake?  And isn’t it true that exercising actually gives you more energy and can help alleviate cramps?

All of my excuses are just silly.  I use them, because let’s face it, I’m either too lazy or too scared to meet my goals.  When you want something bad enough, you make it happen.  You don’t let little things (or big things) stand in your way.  I would always let anything I could remotely turn into a reason to not exercise get in my way.  It’s tiring.  It’s like I spend more time finding ways to get out of doing something when I could just do it and get it over with.

So that’s what I’ve been doing lately.  No excuses with working out.  Can’t make it to the gym?  Hey, I have an elliptical AT MY HOUSE!  I have weights and yoga videos and jump ropes… I really have no excuse.

Last Friday evening, I had to work late.  Usually I would use that as an excuse that I couldn’t exercise because I’d be too tired.  But I did it anyway.  I came home and jumped on the elliptical, and let me tell you, it felt great.  Not just exercising, but it felt great to overcome something I always allowed to hold me back.

Turns out that self-discipline is not only necessary, but it’s what makes you stronger, and it gives you more self-respect.  It feels good to push yourself.  Who would’ve thought?!

No more excuses.  Who’s with me? 🙂

It helps to know your ABCs when you put together an elliptical!

So I bought an elliptical this week from Amazon, and it arrived yesterday.  I contemplated buying for several months now for a few reasons:

1) I’m lazy and have a hard time committing to the gym long enough to make it worth it, so my time, energy, and money is going to waste.  And even when I do go to the gym, I usually only use an elliptical anyway.

2) Having an elliptical at my house allows me to squeeze workouts in on days when I’m super busy or snowed in!

3) I figured if I invested a lot of money into one, that I would be more likely to use it so I don’t waste my money.

My friend Ben and I put it together last night, and it took a lot longer than I expected, mostly because I apparently suck at reading directions.  Just a tip:  When you take out all the screws and washers and bolts, label them and keep them separated so you don’t get confused like I did.  I took all of them out, and I did put them in order, but as the piles began to shrink and disappear, I couldn’t remember which pile was which.

After about 3 hours of putting it together, I realized I gave him the wrong sized washers (C) instead of the right washers (A) … ugh.  So we (I mean, he) had to retrace his steps and redo it.  I felt terrible and couldn’t believe I messed up the directions, considering they were super simple to follow.  Nevertheless, I messed it up.

It sucks to fail, and sometimes I’m able to realize that I failed and that I just need to move on and do better next time.  So that’s what I’m going to do.  Next time I put something together or do something new, I’m going to make sure I know what I’m doing and that I don’t make silly mistakes that are preventable!

Anyway, the elliptical was built and ready to use in 5 hours, when it should have taken maybe 3.  I used it this morning for the first time, and it will take some getting used to because it’s so different from the gym’s, but I can tell it’s going to work great!

I bought a Nautilus E514c Elliptical Trainer for those of you who are curious.  After I use it a little more, I plan to write a review, but for now I like it and am looking forward to NOT going to the gym in this annoyingly cold weather!

Hi, I’m Laura, and I have fat to lose.

So this is my first post, a post I’ve put off for a week because I have no idea what to say for my very first one.  Nevertheless, I’m ready to begin.  I’ve always wanted to blog but never really took the time to do it, and it didn’t help that I never really knew what I should blog about.  I now realize it only makes sense to blog about something that I’m passionate about, something that hits very close to home for me, something that has influenced my life for twenty years, something that has brought me so much pain and so much revelation all at once…


And not just any fat. 

MY FAT – fat I’ve carried around far too long, fat I’ve lost and gained and lost and gained again, fat that I have allowed to weigh me down so much I never really lived a life I enjoyed, fat that I’m ready to lose and never wear again. 

Everyone has a story to tell, and each story in its own right is significant and important and worthy of telling and hearing.  This will be my story.  An open, vulnerable, real account of what it’s like to have fat, and what it’s like to lose it.  I want to document my journey of healthy living in hopes of encouraging others to do the same.  I’m finally ready to continue my weigh tloss journey (I’ve already lost 75 pounds!).  I’m finally ready to lose my insecurities and my weight in such a way that I don’t lose my mind in the process!  

I look forward to sharing my process with you – whether it’s an embarrassing story, or a healthy recipe, or a great success, or an awesome workout, or an inspiring quote or article.