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August, the month I finally complete something!

I have a love/hate relationship with goals.  LOVE them because accomplishing goals is one of the best feelings ever!  HATE them because I fail at them 9 times out of 10!

So why am I crazy enough to challenge myself with two goals for the month of August?  Because I’m finally ready to start something and finish it well.

My goals are:

1. To blog every day in August.  So, 1 down, 30 to go!

2. To be under 200 pounds by September 1st.  Right now I’m 27 pounds away.  I know that’s an intense amount to lose, but I still have a lot of fat on me. And I have the time, the resources, and the dedication to lose the weight in a safe manner.

So we will see how this goes.

So far, so good.  Granted, it’s not even half way through the FIRST day, but this will be good!  Wish me luck!

What are your goals for the month of August?  Would love to hear about them!




Playing Hide-and-Seek with Motivation

Anyone who knows me knows how it’s hard for me stay motivated in any area of my life.  I have some theories as to why I can be so unmotivated sometimes, but in the end, all the theories are simply thought-out excuses.


I really don’t know why I’m so lazy.  I just know that I am lazy, and right now, that’s all I think I need to know.  Well, that and how to stop being so lazy.

These last few weeks I’ve switched gears in how I lose weight.  Looking back, the only time I ever lost weight (around 70 pounds so far) was when Ben was helping me.  I apparently can’t really do it on my own.  I need that outside motivation to help me because while I do want to be healthy and lose weight, I just can’t seem to do it on my own just yet.

I’ve lost weight this week, which is so exciting, and it’s because he is helping me.  He set up a plan for me — what to eat, when to eat, how to exercise, etc — and it’s working!  And the only time it doesn’t work is when I get in the way.

So far, he has exercised with me, which is really helpful because he keeps me going and tells me when I’m doing good and when I need to push harder.

Today I was on my own.  And I sucked.  I did considerably worse, and I could not figure out how to motivate myself to go harder.  This is a problem.  I absolutely have to figure out how to motivate myself.  For the time being, I’m going to have to rely on his motivation to keep me going, but I’m just hoping that I can figure it out soon.

I’m so thankful that he’s helping me and that he cares.  We all need people like that in our lives, don’t we?  Someone who is there to help you out when you just can’t seem to do it yourself.  Someone who believes in you and works through things with you.  Someone who supports but isn’t afraid to call you out on your faults and offer ways to improve.  I’m grateful.

One way or another, I’m going to find motivation from within.  It’s hiding somewhere.  Ready or not, here I come.Image

see you later scales & mirrors!

So my last post I was griping about how I always seem to look fatter when I’m working out and eating the best.  Thanks to all those who encouraged me to keep going, because I kept going, and I can feel myself getting stronger.

I think it’s time I stop worrying about what number is on the scale and what the mirror is showing.  It’s not helping me because I get discouraged too easily.  What is helping, though, is seeing my weight loss journey as a life-changing experience.  I used to always look at it like this:  eat healthy and exercise to lose all the weight so I can get skinny, look great, and eat whatever I want again.

Faulty. Logic. Right. There.

This doesn’t work for two reasons.

1) If I do this, I may or may not lose the weight because I’m probably going to give up because it’s such a huge task that’s going to take a long time.  I think this is partly why I fail so much because every time I fail one time, I get discouraged and think I can’t do it.

2) If I temporarily eat healthy and exercise to lose the weight, then I’m going to gain it all back once I stop!  (DUH Laura!)

So… it finally makes perfect sense that I have to make this my new lifestyle.  I can’t focus on the numbers anymore.  I have to focus on making this a lifestyle change, and I have to realize that no matter what the scale says, as long as I’m treating my body with respect, making it sweat, and fueling it with nutritious foods, then I’m going to be okay.  I will get to where I’m going, one healthy decision at a time.

This isn’t to say I won’t occasionally weigh myself, and it’s not like I’m covering all the mirrors in my house… but I’m in this for the long haul.

Being healthy isn’t a goal with a finish line… it’s a never ending journey that we all deserve and need to travel and explore!