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Onward, I Go…


I’ve got a lot on my mind these days. It’s easy to get overwhelmed and want to give up on everything. But I’m trying with all my might to stay positive and focused and to try and make the best decisions for my life. It’s so hard sometimes to know whether or not what I am doing will be worth it.

That’s why my focus can’t be a number. My focus can’t be how I’m going to look in a bathing suit. I can only focus on doing what makes my body healthier, stronger, and happier. And quite honestly, my entire being is happier and stronger and healthier when I’m giving it the proper nutrition and physically pushing myself to reach new goals. I need to remember that.

Remember that, Laura.

Sometimes I feel as if I know myself well. I can be honest with myself regarding my feelings and thoughts and actions. Other times I find myself pausing, quietly searching for me, for my purpose. Sometimes I just feel lost.

This morning, I’m really struggling. I want certain things in my life to be a certain way, and I just don’t know if I’m ever going to make it. I don’t feel strong enough. I don’t feel smart enough. I don’t know what I’m doing.

And that makes me want to just quit. It makes me want to forget about my goals and my search for happiness. But I can’t. Something within me just won’t let me give up entirely. Somehow I’ve got to figure this out. I’ve got to trust that I can do this. I’ve got to believe that this is going to work, that my life isn’t just wasting away, that I’m not just going to waste away.

Growing up, I always envisioned my life a little differently than how it’s turned out so far. I always dreamed about losing weight (since I was 6 years old), and I always dreamed about making a noticeable difference in the lives of others, and I always dreamed about being in love and being married, knowing that I had found that one person to share everything with, knowing that I would be happy and secure.

My problem is that I always DREAMED and never ACTED.

I feel like I’m just guessing at life. I suppose that’s in some way got to be normal. I just need to have confidence and enough faith in myself and enough faith in God to know that no matter what happens I’m going to be okay, that no matter what happens I’m going to be okay, that no matter what happens…I’m. Going. To. Be. Okay.

Here goes nothing… or everything, I suppose.

So there’s my woe-is-me post for the day.

Just getting this off my chest makes me feel a bit better. It also helps to feel the sun shining on me through the window and to hear the birds singing outside.

I’ve just got to stay focused! I’m done wallowing for the day. Things may be intense right now for me, but I’ve got good things going on, too. I just need to let them happen and get out of my own way!


Four days into the month, and I’ve eaten good each day. I’ve also gone for a run each day. And I’ve done something that makes me happy each day. Yesterday I didn’t post a blog, but I have 3 out of the 4 days, so I’m okay with that. I’ve even lost 2.5 pounds. Overall, I am proud of myself for these last few days.

I know that I can turn all of this around. Even now I feel renewed a bit… it’s slight, but I can feel it.

I’m just going to fight this and move forward, because if I give in, that means I go backwards. And going backwards means I’m even further from my goals. And I refuse to do that this time.

Onward, I go.


Fun-Sized Candy is No Fun


Just a little picture to make you feel guilty about eating that Halloween candy!

That’s not really my intention, though.  This is more of a reminder to me how damaging sugar and candy can be.  Just one is no big deal, but who actually eats just one fun-sized candy bar?  I don’t know that I ever have.  I’m pretty sure every time fun-sized candy is available to me, I end up eating way more than I should.  I think because they are small then they are okay.  But they do add up.  Almost always I would have been better off just eating a normal-sized bar–or maybe even a king-sized bar.

One fun-sized Kit-Kat is only 70 calories and is a good option if you want something sweet but don’t want to splurge.  If only I stopped at one.  But I don’t.  So I’ll just avoid it all together this Halloween.

How about you?  Do you find these fun-sized treats to be your friend or your foe?

Who Needs Sleep? This Girl!

I slept until 10:30… I must have been sleepy!  I went to bed a little late, and then I was awake for a few hours early morning.  I’m happy I fell back to sleep.  I hate waking up so late because now half my day is over and I’ve done nothing.  

Well, I’ve had breakfast and I have chocolate banana muffins in the oven, and I’m posting on here, but my day is half over now.  Oh well.  Sleep is more important!  I truly, really, seriously, completely love sleep.  

I typically sleep around 9 hours a night, and if I get anything less than 7, I’m not as productive.  

I’ve literally noticed a difference in my workouts and my eating habits if I don’t get enough sleep, not to mention my mood, too!  

So what about you?  How much sleep do you get?  Have you ever noticed how your sleeping influences the rest of your day?


Choosing Pain…


I don’t like pain of any kind.  Not that anyone really does, but I have a very low tolerance for pain for the most part.  I think I’m finally seeing that hurting from exercising is much more preferable than hurting for the rest of my life from being obese.  

I don’t belong in this fat.  It’s not who I am.  But the good news is that I’m not stuck there anymore.  It hurts, but it’s oh so worth it.

Down another 1/2 pound from yesterday.  Yes!

I would also like to point out that I have posted a blog 8 days in a row!  Feels good to actually be sticking to my goals.  I’m not quite sure that I’m going to be under 200 pounds by September 1st, but I don’t even care honestly.  I will get there, and focusing so intently this month is going to help me in all sorts of ways!

Day 5… 26 More To Go… … ugh

Day 5 of my 31 day challenge is complete.  Yay!  I did my cardio, and now I’m doing my blog post for the day.  Today was a little tough for me.  My weight keeps staying the same, but I just need to stick with it.  My body is stubborn enough as it is.  Me being lazy isn’t going to make it any better!

If it doesn’t start budging soon, though, you might be reading some nasty blog posts here shortly… Like tomorrow morning.

I’m kidding.  Or maybe I’m not.  I don’t even know!

I’m not as discouraged as I probably sound, but I might get there soon if things don’t change.  So we will shall see!


Losing Weight is EASY! ……………… or NOT

July 31st- 232 lbs.

Aug 1st – 228.5 lbs.

Aug 2nd – 227 lbs.

Two days into August, and I must say I’m on the right track with my goal to be under 200 pounds by Sept 1st.  And this is my second day in a row of blogging, too.  Go me!  Only 29 more days!  I can do this, and I will do this.  One day at a time!

I’ve lost 5 pounds in 2 days, but that doesn’t mean losing weight is easy.  Granted, most of it is probably water weight, but who cares?!  I’m working really, really hard to get it off.  The concept of losing weight is easy, but actually sticking with it long enough to lose weight is hard.  But it’s worth it!  At least that’s what I keep telling my poor feet… 🙂

Would love to hear your thoughts on how you stick with your goals.  Any tips or tricks or is just pure dedication and persistence?



August, the month I finally complete something!

I have a love/hate relationship with goals.  LOVE them because accomplishing goals is one of the best feelings ever!  HATE them because I fail at them 9 times out of 10!

So why am I crazy enough to challenge myself with two goals for the month of August?  Because I’m finally ready to start something and finish it well.

My goals are:

1. To blog every day in August.  So, 1 down, 30 to go!

2. To be under 200 pounds by September 1st.  Right now I’m 27 pounds away.  I know that’s an intense amount to lose, but I still have a lot of fat on me. And I have the time, the resources, and the dedication to lose the weight in a safe manner.

So we will see how this goes.

So far, so good.  Granted, it’s not even half way through the FIRST day, but this will be good!  Wish me luck!

What are your goals for the month of August?  Would love to hear about them!