Tag Archives: exercise

Maybe I am changing after all…

Change is hard.  I know I’m not the only one who struggles with changing bad habits.  I want to the best version of me that I can be, and it’s something I work on daily.  Little by little, I am changing for the better.

I know lots of people who believe that people never change, but I just don’t think it’s true.  Perhaps it’s more realistic because the majority of us never really change our ways, but I’m a little more hopeful than that.  People can change.  They just have to want it.  And even when they do want it, just because it’s wanted doesn’t mean it happens.  It’s hard.

But anyway.  Yesterday I was working on a ghostwriting project for a client, which took all of my afternoon.  In the morning, I worked on filling out my calendar for the next few months.  I should have worked out then, but I didn’t.

I do that a lot.  When I know I should be doing one thing but don’t want to do it, I will do something else that isn’t as important but still needs to be done.  I reason and compromise with myself, saying that at least I’m doing something when I’m really just avoiding doing what needs to be done.

Usually when I put off a task I end up not doing it all that day, or if I do it, I do it half-heartedly.

But not yesterday.  It was 9:30pm, and I still hadn’t exercised yet.  But I promised earlier in the day that I would.  The old me would have just gone to bed.  But that’s not what I did.

I worked out hard for 2 hours.  I was proud of myself for sticking to my word.  I’m working on this whole integrity thing!

I hate working out at night, but I did it anyway.

Maybe I am changing a little bit after all…


Summer is Almost Over… :(

I start my new job in a few weeks. I have to admit, it’s been ridiculously amazing not having to work this summer, but my bank account will thank me for working again!

This summer I’ve been able to focus more on losing weight, but with work starting back up, I need to make a plan of action so I don’t fail. It will be harder to work out, and it will be more tempting to eat unhealthier foods because I won’t be at home in my healthy food bubble all day long.

But I can do it. I just have to plan for it!

I still don’t know my exact schedule because I’m looking to add a few more hours with other families (I’m a nanny.), so I’m not quite sure when I will have time to exercise. But I will definitely be finding the time. I’m liking my success and know that there’s no reason to make excuses not to work out. I want to keep losing weight. And I’m determined to do it!

So my plan? I don’t know completely, but here’s what I have so far:
-I bought a lunch bag and ice packs so I can take my breakfast, lunch, snacks with me.
-I’m going to pre-make my lunches for the week so I can easily have access to healthy foods at any given time. I’m still working on ideas for that, but I know they will include veggies with bean/chicken with either quinoa, rice, or pasta, salads or raw veggies with grilled chicken or salmon and homemade salsas, veggies with hummus, fresh fruit, homemade oatmeal muffins, boiled eggs, and on and on…
-I also have a water bottle that I carry with me everywhere, so I can still easily get my water.
-I just need to figure out when I’m working out. I could always wake up at 5:30am and workout before work, but I honestly don’t see that happening! Depending on what other work I get, I may have several hours in the middle of the day to work out, but if not, I guess it will be in the evenings and on the weekends.

How do all you busy, working people find time to work out? I would also love to hear about anything that works for you regarding packing healthy lunches and also time management.

Goals for the Week

Hello my blogging friends!

August is over half way over now, and I have a feeling these next two weeks are going to fly by!

I’ve come up with a few goals for myself for this week:
*Drink enough water! Water is so important, and I keep finding myself drinking way too little. My goal is 110oz of water a day.
*Workout at Snap Fitness. I signed up for a 30-day trial, and my pass just came in the mail this weekend. Yay!
*Continue to blog daily.
*Don’t eat wheat. I keep saying I will stay away from it, but I’m not completely, and every time I eat it, I’m getting really bloated. It’s messing with my digestion, and it’s making my skin red and rashy. So I need to stay away!

So those are my goals for the week. What are yours?

I heart Saturdays…

Today has been a more quiet, relaxed day than usual.  I did 30 minutes of cardio this morning before breakfast.  

Then we had some delicious cinnamon and raisin French toast with turkey bacon and berries.  I love cooking!

Yesterday Ben finished one of his novels he’s been working on this summer (He’s written TWO so far!!), so I’ve spent the day reading/editing the first draft.  It’s truly a great story!  And I’m not just saying that because I’m biased… it really is!  I have a Master’s in Publishing & Editing – I know these kinds of things!  

😀 but seriously, it’s a good book that I’ve read for about 8 hours today.  He’s so talented!

For lunch we had roasted potatoes, white fish, and homemade pineapple-ginger salsa.  It was pretty darn tasty.  I even used canned diced tomatoes with green chilies because I didn’t have any fresh ones, and it still tasted really fresh.  

Almost dinner time, and i’m not really sure what to make.  I have 1/2 a cabbage and some sweet potatoes that are on the verge of going bad, so it will probably be something with that.  

I’m starting to think maybe I should take pictures and post recipes of the things I make… maybe even include calories and what not.  Would anyone be interested in that?  I do it every once in awhile, but I could make it part of my weekly blogging experience.

August 15, Already?

Half way through the month.  My initial goals for August were to 1) blog every day and 2) get under 200 lbs (losing 30 pounds).

Well, I’ve blogged every day so far, which is a huge accomplishment for me in itself.  Rarely do I do anything for 15 days in a row!

And while i haven’t lost a pound a day (which I now know is stinkin’ impossible for my body type!), I have lost 8.5 pounds in 15 days!

That’s over 1/2 a pound a day… I’ll take it!

I’d love to end the month losing 20 pounds, which I’m pretty sure I can do.  I just need to lose about 12 more.  I just realized that’s actually a great goal for me because if I meet it, I will then be at 100 pounds lost total.  That’s pretty cool, too!


doh! if only it worked that way!


Today Ben told me that my thighs were looking a little smaller.  I looked at them and said something along the lines of: “Yeah, I think they are looking WAY smaller here recently.  I think I may even be getting a thigh gap!” (*Please note a thigh gap is not my goal here!)

I’m pretty sure he rolled his eyes at me and smiled and said something like: “Remember when you’d exercise for one day and say that you already looked so much smaller?”  And then he laughed.

I laughed, too.  Yes, I remembered because I’m pretty sure I do that every time.  I probably even said it a few weeks ago.  

Is anyone else like me and Homer?

I don’t really know why I do it.  Maybe I look a little smaller because I lose initial water weight, or maybe I’m not smaller at all and just feel smaller because I’m more pumped up about losing weight.  Either way, I always think I look awesome after exercising, which is okay by me!  Unless it gives me a false sense of security… but who cares!  If I’m feeling good about my body because I’m working it out, then I’m okay with that.


Better Than Yesterday…

Yesterday was a bit of a rough day for me.  But today is a new day, and I’m choosing to make it better.  

So far so good.  

I slept in a little, already did an intense hour on the elliptical, had a delicious serving of oatmeal with peaches, cinnamon, and a little brown sugar (I was craving Peach Cobbler!), and now I’m posting on my blog.  And my weight is back down again, so that’s exciting, too.

This entire process is a learning experience.  I had a good conversation with Ben yesterday about my motivation, how easily I give up, and how I have trouble accepting positive criticism.  It really put a light to everything.  All my life I would quit things if they got too hard.  No one ever really pushed me to do better (not that they should have), and I certainly never pushed myself to be better.  I’ve always settled.  OK is almost always good enough for me.  And I do that with my health.

I really want that to change.  The point is–yeah, maybe I’ve lost 85+ pounds in 4 years, which I know is an incredible loss so don’t misunderstand me here–I can do better.  

I’m not trying to be perfect.  I just want to do better than my personal best.  That’s all I want.  That’s why I was upset yesterday because I know I’m not doing my best.  And I want to do better.  I have to do better.  I want to end the day knowing I did all I could do to make myself happy and healthy.

I’m sure I’ll have more days like yesterday, but I’m going on.  I’m continuing on this lifelong journey.  And pretty soon, it’s all going to be wonderful.  Maybe it’s already a bit wonderful.