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Don’t Give Up Just Because You Mess Up

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I’ve been trying to lose weight since I was in the third grade. That’s 20 straight years of me focusing on my weight and how it needed to go.

I have grown so much over the years and feel that every day I am more and more prepared and capable of living a healthy and happy life.

I’ve messed up countless times. I had lost 80 pounds, only to gain 90 back in less than 2 years’ time. I’ve lost the same 10 lbs AT LEAST 20 times (seriously). Through all my failures, it would have been easy to give up. If I can’t figure something out in 20 years, then I’m never going to, right?

WRONG.

I don’t have all the answers (not even close!), but I do know that I deserve to be healthy and happy and that I’m the only one who can give that to myself. I have fallen countless times, but I get back up every single time. I am constantly learning new things about me. I’m learning to push myself. I’m learning that I am in control of what I say, do, eat, drink, etc. Me. Not anyone else. Something within me refuses to just give up forever, refuses to resign to the fact that I will be obese all my life.

Have I wanted to give up? Yes, of course, I have had those defeating thoughts, and sometimes I’ve gone a few days, weeks, months feeling weak and like a failure. But even then, in the back of my mind, I knew I had to find a way to accomplish my goals.

 

It’s not about how fast you get to the finish line. It’s about learning how incredible and strong and capable and beautiful you are on the journey, right now.

 

Don’t give up because you keep messing up.

If something doesn’t work, try it again, and if it doesn’t work again, try tackling the problem from a different angle. You owe it to yourself to keep going. Don’t deny yourself the freedom and joy that come with realizing how strong you really are. You can do this.

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Running Away the Clouds

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Today is cold and windy and cloudy. I contemplated not going for my run because the conditions weren’t right. And then I realized that was just a bit silly.

If I wait for conditions to always be right, I’m never going to get anywhere — not just in running but in all areas of my life.

Not every day is going to be beautiful and sunny and happy and wonderful, and I have to be okay with that. I have to adjust and still get things done.

It’s easy for me to find excuses as to why I didn’t do this or that, but I’m happy I’m realizing these now.

I’m happy I made myself run. I ran for 32 minutes. It was a hard run (and not the best time for the distance) because it was colder than I liked, and it was really windy, and it happened to start raining half way through. But I completed it.

The minute hard times come, I can’t just give in or fall back. I’m learning how to fight; I’m learning how to push through my fears, excuses, and insecurities.

Life is really hard right now for me. It’s tempting to consider just giving up, but it makes much more sense to continue eating, sleeping, and exercising good because it helps with stress and mood levels among other things. Those things I can control.

Fighting against my insecurities, excuses, and fears makes me stronger, not weaker. 

Funny thing is, after I finished my run, I was sitting on the porch listening to the birds singing. And the clouds parted and the sun poked through. The wind calmed down, and the raining stopped.

In that moment I needed to see that and feel that. What I didn’t need today was to run in the warm sunshine because that’s not teaching me anything. And I want to learn. Character


Exercising is a Gift, not a Punishment

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I don’t want to view exercise as a punishment because it’s not. I think that is primarily how I view it. “Oh, I ate a doughnut. I better go run that off.” While exercise obviously helps negate the extra calories, I don’t think you should exercise “just because” you ate something bad.

I want exercise to be about taking care of my body, about knowing my body and how it works, about loving myself, about confidence. Exercise is not a punishment. It’s a gift, something I can do for myself to reap all kinds of benefits. Exercise is worth it. I’m worth it.

If I view exercise as a punishment, I’m going to dread it even more. Because after all, who wants to be punished?

Anyway, just a thought I had while running today!

My weight is being so stubborn, and I let it discourage me and derail me for two days, but that’s not going to solve anything! Thankfully it was just a two-day sulk and not a two month one. I went for my 1.2 mile run today. I completed it in 14 minutes 7 seconds… 8 seconds faster than my best… so yay!

Yesterday I ran 2.4 miles, and I think I’m going to start running 2.4 a day from now on. I can do the 1.2 “easily” (not really, but my lungs can handle it so I can do more!).

Today I’m going to run another lap, do some toning exercises, and a bit of yoga!

Good news is that while the scale is barely moving, my butt is beginning to lift some already so that is super exciting to be able to notice a small difference in just a few weeks.

Whoever you are, wherever you are… just keep going. Do what makes you happy and do what keeps you healthy. You are worth it all. 🙂


Running Time is Getting Better!

My vacation ends tomorrow morning. I’m somewhat ready to go back to work, though it has been wonderful having these days off. I lost 5 pounds in 10 days. I really hope I can keep this momentum up!

I haven’t been meeting my goal of blogging every day, but I am meeting all of my other goals, so I’m okay with that. I’ve been active 30 minutes every day (at least). Not all intense activity, but active nonetheless. I’ve been eating good. My water intake could still be better. And I have been doing something that makes me happy every single day.

And honestly? I just feel so much better. Things are still stressful, and there’s still a lot of “unknowns” going on right now, but I just feel better. I feel more like myself. I feel more in control. And that is a very good thing!

My running time is improving as well, which is awesome! I can now run a mile in 10 minutes 56 seconds! So I’m thinking I can easily meet my goal of running a mile in under 10 minutes. I just have to keep going. My time for route around my house is 13 minutes 41 seconds. Just a few weeks ago it was 16 minutes 26 seconds.

I just need to remember (on days like today where I think I look extra fat!) that what I am doing is working. That I am making progress. That I can and AM doing this!


I can do this.

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I’ve been working on decreasing my time and increasing my endurance for running. By gosh by golly I think I am getting better! April 1st when I started running again, it took me 16 min 26 sec to run 1.2 miles. Today it took me 14 min 15 sec!

I’m not sure if my body is just getting better, or if my mind is getting better and I’m learning to ignore my negative thoughts. I suppose a combo of both. But either way, I must keep improving!

I can do this. If I can stay out of my head long enough, I know I can get this done.

By the end of the summer, I want to be able to run this same route (1.2 miles) in under 10 minutes. That’s my long term goal for running. Here soon, I’m going to begin running longer distances again, but for now, I’m just trying to focus on this specific route. I’ve also been doing 10-15 minutes of intense elliptical after each run, too.

And I got a good deal on online yoga classes for 6 months, so I will be incorporating that into my workouts some, too.

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this!


it’s up to YOU :)

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We can’t always control what happens to us in life, but we can certainly control how we react to it and how we let it influence the rest of our lives.

Heroine or Victim?

It’s up to YOU 🙂


Hi, I’m Laura, and I have fat to lose.

So this is my first post, a post I’ve put off for a week because I have no idea what to say for my very first one.  Nevertheless, I’m ready to begin.  I’ve always wanted to blog but never really took the time to do it, and it didn’t help that I never really knew what I should blog about.  I now realize it only makes sense to blog about something that I’m passionate about, something that hits very close to home for me, something that has influenced my life for twenty years, something that has brought me so much pain and so much revelation all at once…

FAT. 

And not just any fat. 

MY FAT – fat I’ve carried around far too long, fat I’ve lost and gained and lost and gained again, fat that I have allowed to weigh me down so much I never really lived a life I enjoyed, fat that I’m ready to lose and never wear again. 

Everyone has a story to tell, and each story in its own right is significant and important and worthy of telling and hearing.  This will be my story.  An open, vulnerable, real account of what it’s like to have fat, and what it’s like to lose it.  I want to document my journey of healthy living in hopes of encouraging others to do the same.  I’m finally ready to continue my weigh tloss journey (I’ve already lost 75 pounds!).  I’m finally ready to lose my insecurities and my weight in such a way that I don’t lose my mind in the process!  

I look forward to sharing my process with you – whether it’s an embarrassing story, or a healthy recipe, or a great success, or an awesome workout, or an inspiring quote or article.