I’ve posted 11 days in a row! That’s pretty impressive.
My weight loss goal isn’t going so great. I’m no where close to meeting my goal of being under 200 pounds by September 1st. I’m pretty disappointed in myself, but mostly I’m honestly just trying to ignore that I’ve failed and pretend that it doesn’t matter. But it does matter.
Part of me just wants to finish the month well and be okay with the fact that I didn’t meet my goal… because I at least lost something, right?
But another part of me is just pissed off that I failed yet another goal. Granted, it was a lofty goal, but I still could have and should have crushed it.
I’m just not happy with myself. It doesn’t matter how much weight I’ve lost. I just feel like I have a problem that goes deeper than my weight loss problem. I continuously settle for less than what I deserve. I hardly ever try my hardest, and when I do try my hardest, I act as if that allows me to be lazy for a few days because I earned it. And so my hard work is fruitless.
I’m so annoying.
Why am I so lazy and unmotivated, and why do I make countless excuses for my behaviors? Why can’t I just change and finally accomplish something I set out to accomplish?
Anyone know how to fix me?
Yeah, I know, I’m the only one who can do it. I just don’t know how.