Monthly Archives: August 2014

Addition to September Goals…

5 pounds heavier this morning than I was yesterday morning.  Gotta love water & bloat weight!  I ate crappy yesterday, and now I feel super yucky.  I couldn’t even fall asleep last night I was so uncomfortable.  So we decided to add a new goal for September.

*Don’t eat wheat or dairy for September (except for maybe one time when we go to a music and art festival)

We generally stay away from wheat & dairy for the most part because of allergies and sensitivities, but even just having it once a week messes me up.  So I’m curious to see how I will feel if I stay completely away from it.  I think adding this to my September goals will also help me lose weight!


Just a Saturday Evening…

I’m getting semi-excited about September. I’m really confident that I can meet my goals this time!

With that said, I just finished a meal from KFC… don’t ask why, but I did. I don’t really feel bad about it because I had been craving it and used it as my cheat meal, but my stomach… oh my stomach. Fried foods just don’t work for me… at all!

My tastes and preferences are changing, so that’s good. The fried chicken (1 leg, 1 thigh) was super fatty and wasn’t so great, but the biscuits (2) and a small side of mac & cheese and mashed potatoes & gravy were really good! But overall, I probably would have enjoyed a nice piece of pan-fried salmon instead. Lesson learned 🙂

August Over Already?

September is almost here, which means my August goals are coming to an end.  I’ve been thinking of what goals I want to do for September.

I don’t think I’m going to do a goal of blogging every day this time.  I blew that goal out of the water, thankfully!  I literally don’t think I’ve ever done anything consistently for a month straight.  So goal accomplished.

Ben had a goal of writing TWO novels in August, and he is going to accomplish his goal!  I think that’s pretty amazing to be able to write that much in such a short amount of time.  And the writing is wonderful, too!  Hopefully he gets another published book out of it!

My goal of getting under 200 lbs is nowhere close to being completed, but it was unrealistic anyway.  So my September goal is going to involve more weight loss.  I’m still 22 lbs away from 200 lbs, which is much more than I would have liked, but it is what it is.

So for September, I’m not even going to try to lose the lbs.  I just want to get past my 100 lbs lost mark, which means I want to weigh at most 211 by October 1st.  That’s only about 11 lbs to lose, so I can do that!  I hope, at least.

I go back to work in September, and my schedule is going to be rather busy, so as long as I mindfully plan workouts and actually stick to it, then I will be fine.

So my September goals:

1. Weigh 211 by October 1st

2. Blog 3x a week

3. Drink at least 100 oz of water a day (I really need to drink more water.  I’m always parched at the end of the day!)

I’ve never set goals by the month and actually stuck by them the entire time.  I think it helps keep me focused, so hopefully September’s goals will all be accomplished!

How did your August goals turn out?

Maybe I am changing after all…

Change is hard.  I know I’m not the only one who struggles with changing bad habits.  I want to the best version of me that I can be, and it’s something I work on daily.  Little by little, I am changing for the better.

I know lots of people who believe that people never change, but I just don’t think it’s true.  Perhaps it’s more realistic because the majority of us never really change our ways, but I’m a little more hopeful than that.  People can change.  They just have to want it.  And even when they do want it, just because it’s wanted doesn’t mean it happens.  It’s hard.

But anyway.  Yesterday I was working on a ghostwriting project for a client, which took all of my afternoon.  In the morning, I worked on filling out my calendar for the next few months.  I should have worked out then, but I didn’t.

I do that a lot.  When I know I should be doing one thing but don’t want to do it, I will do something else that isn’t as important but still needs to be done.  I reason and compromise with myself, saying that at least I’m doing something when I’m really just avoiding doing what needs to be done.

Usually when I put off a task I end up not doing it all that day, or if I do it, I do it half-heartedly.

But not yesterday.  It was 9:30pm, and I still hadn’t exercised yet.  But I promised earlier in the day that I would.  The old me would have just gone to bed.  But that’s not what I did.

I worked out hard for 2 hours.  I was proud of myself for sticking to my word.  I’m working on this whole integrity thing!

I hate working out at night, but I did it anyway.

Maybe I am changing a little bit after all…

Jiggles are a good thing!


I saw this on Pinterest and it made me smile.  When I first started working out with Ben, I would always get so discouraged because all of my fat jiggled so much.  I would want to quit because I didn’t want to feel it (or hear it… those thighs can make loud slapping noises sometimes!).  I would use it as a reminder that I was fat.

But he always told me to use it as motivation, that every time I felt the jiggle to remember that it’s the fat coming off of me.

I still jiggle, but I can tell it’s a little less jiggling now.  And then it will be less… and less… and less….

So don’t worry about the jiggle.  Making it jiggle is going to make it disappear a lot faster!

Waking up early isn’t so bad, right?

I seriously need to start waking up early.  It’s amazing all the things I can get done in the morning.  This means I have to go to bed earlier.  Used to, I would go to bed around 9, but this summer I’ve been staying up until 11 or 12 every night, which makes me sleep longer in the morning because I don’t skimp on sleep!  But now that my new job begins next week, I have to rework my sleeping habits!

I woke up at 5:30 today and did an hour on the elliptical, ate a banana, and showered before leaving the house at 7:15 this morning to go shadow the nanny whose place I will be taking next Tuesday.  I’m really excited about my new nanny family!  The kids are 5-year-old boy-girl twins, and they are so much fun!

So I shadowed the nanny for an hour and was home by 9.  (I have to go back at 4pm.)

Then I cut up peppers & onions, made a homemade fajita seasoning mix and dumped it all in the crockpot with frozen chicken breasts.  So lunch is cooking.

Then I made zucchini & raisin muffins for breakfast, which actually turned out quite well.  I made up the recipe, so I never really know if my concoctions will work or not!

And then I had breakfast.

So here it is only 10:30am, and I have already exercised, went to work, prepared lunch, baked muffins, ate breakfast, and posted on my blog.

Oh if every day could be this productive!  Let’s see if I can make that happen!

Do you find that you feel more prepared to take on the day when you wake up early?

the things i used to wear

Yesterday I realized on two different occasions that I don’t wear the same kinds of clothes I used to wear.

In elementary school I stopped wearing dresses, bathing suits, and tank tops. It embarrassed me to show my skin.

In middle school I stopped wearing shorts. I also started wearing long-sleeved shirts under my t-shirts. And when I wasn’t wearing a long-sleeved shirt and a t-shirt, I was wearing a big hoodie. And jeans. Always jeans.

In high school I started wearing tank tops under all of my shirts so I could have enough coverage to “hide” my butt. I stopped wearing capris also.

In college I started wearing slimmers. And I’m not just talking about one pair of thigh slimmers. I wore slimmers that went to my boobs all the way down to my ankles. I also would wear slimming tank tops and corsets even.

So by the time I was in college, I didn’t wear shorts, dresses, bathing suits, tank tops by themselves, short sleeves unless they went to my elbows. But I did wear tank tops to layer and add coverage and slimmers of every variety. I started wearing capris again. I stopped layering my t-shirts with long-sleeved shirts though, so that’s good. And I also stopped wearing hoodies every day.

Speaking of hoodies, when I went to Nicaragua one time, I literally wore long pants and a hoodie one day. It was miserable. And our Senior year in high school, we went to the zoo around the end of May, and I wore jeans and a hoodie. It was equally miserable.

As I began to lose weight my wardrobe began to change. Little by little I allowed myself to wear something I used to deem taboo for me. I never judged others who were overweight when they wore bathing suits or tank tops or dresses, but I judged myself. In all honesty, I was completely jealous of them because they were comfortable enough to wear them!

Now, I can wear a tank top around the house or outside to take out the trash or exercise in the drive way without feeling uncomfortable. Now, I wear dresses all the time, sometimes even ones that go to my knees or a little above. Now, I don’t have to have slimmers on to leave the house and hardly ever even wear them! Now, I don’t wear hoodies in the summer, and I wear form-fitting blouses. Now I don’t even have to layer tank tops under my shirts. Now I don’t worry about wearing shorts around the house.

The only things left that I don’t wear in public but wish I did are: shorts, tank tops, and bathing suits. I wear them around the house, but my goal is to wear them in public my next Summer. I’m excited because this was the last summer that I didn’t wear completely what I wanted to wear.

I am slowly losing my insecurities regarding clothes, and I am so proud of myself. It seems weird to talk about this because it sounds so silly to me. I don’t know why I put those restrictions on me, but I did. But now they are coming off.